It's the time of year when many teachers heave a sigh of relief and coast through to the Summer. Year 11 and 13 classes have been released to their bright and shiny futures and those with a heavy exam schedule find their life returning. It should be a time for reflection, focus on next year and slowing down a little.
So why is this leaving me dissatisfied?
Perhaps it is because of colleagues (often younger/less experienced) who are still up to their eyeballs with lower-school classes. (Altruism)
Perhaps it is the feeling that I should catch up with all the things that have been left undone throughout the year. (Beating myself up)
Perhaps I'm not content to coast and need the challenge of rushing from place to place like a maniac. (Feeling of being 'out of the loop')
Perhaps I'm at a career crossroads and that is preying on my mind. (Too much time to think!)
Perhaps I fell guilty about the lack of classroom work to do.
More likely it is a mixture of these things. I feel the weight of untapped potential clinging to me. No longer tied to a strict timetable, I should be driving forward with professional, personal and departmental development.
This is new. I've been happy in the past to reduce myself to a slow simmer and enjoy the time. Not so this year.
Must go and look busy, so no-one notices that I've too much time on my hands...
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